i regret ... the love of my soul ... since we were six years old we were always together ..we were soul mates ..i dont know why i gave her the silent treatment ...and that what i regret to this day ...maybe its meant to be ..maybe its better that way ..my life isn't meant to be easy ...that what i've chosen
this is the first time i have ever told this ... kinda relief
I got quite a few little regrets here and there-things I did, things I shouldn't have done, things I wish I should have done...but the main one I have is not being able to open up to the people that really matter in my life. Maybe it's because I got hurt when I did it once before, but it hurts even more now that I always keep my mouth shut when I shouldn't.
I know my friends and family are there for me, and yet I keep "hiding in my shell" as my dad puts it. I just hope I can be more open with everybody someday...actually, typing this out here kinda made me feel better. Maybe I can start after I wake up. *head meets desk* Zzzz...
I've found that over time the mistakes I made in the past have all led to better oppurtunities later. For instance my luck with girls:
I had a huge crush on this one girl and I never told her, and I ended up moving away. I used to regret it, but I don't anymore, because now I'm with a girl who is infinitely better than the girl I used to have a crush on so many years ago.
So, I've learned not to regret what I do, but to have faith that it will all turn out for the best in the end, and so far it has
-Being cruel to my friends when it was not necessary
-Being stupid and letting my depression kill my grades as a freshman
-Crying constantly over something of the past and letting my past consume me instead of thinking of the future
-Holding a grudge against my mom for neglecting me as a child when it was not her fault
Yeah. 0_o; Dunno what you were going for... but there ya go!
Oh yeah... I regret not studying enough last night. I regret all the procrastinating I did this semester. I regret doing half-assed jobs on all my final papers. I regret messing up my room and then having to hide it from my mom and then arguing with her over the phone earlier. Most of all I regret randomly making out with someone at a club last Halloween because he gave me mono and I was in the hospital for a week and I've been a mess ever since then. I regret having a relationship go sour and fall apart, leading me to randomly make out. I regret the way I let myself get carried away with guys too much. And I probably have other regrets too, but right now I'm just so tired and stressed out and worried about my grades I can't think about it.